If someone here is bad, That must be me?

I can't always see how You ignore me, that's terrible. There are moments when I know That I will be happy, that everything starting to be good and perfect, and in one moment everything is broke. Everything change so fast, and so strange. I always ask my self why, but i really don't know.. I wanna just sit on a bench with You, tell You how i feel in this moment, and feel You, Hug You and just Be my self.. That's hurt me, You don't know what You want, That's terrible, I hate that in You, but i can't do nothing.